sissy joanne - owned by Mistress Carmine

Leave of absence

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Fri, 01 Sep 2006 13:57:00 +0000

All,

i will be posting very irregular for a while, personal issues have arisen and i must attend to them.

Update

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Sun, 27 Aug 2006 16:45:00 +0000

Hi everyone! i am so sorry that i have not updated the blog for a few days. i really do appreciate the comments that are made here.

i was a bit under the weather and neglected posting here. Today is day 40 since i last cum, and Mistress has some plans to play today. She has ordered me to drink a certain amount of liquid and to put an enema in my pussy. i will wear my bra and panties while scrubbing the kitchen floor on my hands and knees.

Mistress also allowed me to let nubbin out of its cage and it immediatly got hard. She said that She was interested in piss and cum control today and i know that with piss control it will be painful for me today. i do not know about the cum control, She has never played with me much that way yet other than keeping nubbin locked up.

i will reinstall the cage exactly 24 hours from the time it was removed which means it will be in a bathroom stall at work!

i keep checking the poll at NTC, the 1 year is winning at the moment, but i keep holding out hope that it will change. Until Mistress Carmine posts that the poll is closed i have a chance of it changing!

Have a great day - mine is certainly looking fantastic at the moment!

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

32 days and more

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Sat, 19 Aug 2006 21:07:00 +0000

Today is day 32 of denial, but it is also nearing a week of being locked up. Actually in the last 12 days the little nubbin has only been out of its cage once.

i had to work today and have to work tomorrow some too. Monday i am going out of town and won't be back until very late on Tuesday. i should be able to connect to the Internet both Monday and Tuesday evenings in order to catch up with any duties that i have.

Mistress wants me to check into going to a salon while i am gone, but the town i am going to is very very small and conservative. i don't think there will be a proper place there, but i will look in the phonebook. The other problem is that i will get there late in the day on Monday, have meetings most of the morning Tuesday and then head back home. i will also be traveling with others so the stars may not align properly for the task.

Looks like my lunch hour is about over, i am heading back to work. No emails or other tasks to catch up on, i will check back when i get home tonight.

Oh and i found a new group place on the Internet like Yahoo groups only it is adult oriented. It is in beta and there were certainly some SQL issues with it, but it looks like it will be good. And they allow content that Yahoo regularly kills groups for having.

Check it out at http://xxxratedgroups.com/ i was wondering if Mistress Carmine would think of starting a group there and moving sometime because of the way Yahoo kills groups.

Have a great weekend everyone.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Another Day locked up

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Fri, 18 Aug 2006 14:32:00 +0000

Today i continue to be locked in my cage. The poll at NTC had 1 year of chastity winning yesterday, but today when i checked it is a tie between one month and 1 year.

To be honest i am scared of the thought of a year, that is a long time! The poll is scheduled to end at the end of the month so there are many days left for it to go one way or the other. i only hope that when the poll ends i am able to comply with what the wishes of Mistress are.

i continue to have problems with others reporting their status as Mistress has ordered and i feel as though i am failing and i don't know how else to make it work.

i am home right now, wearing panties, pantyhose and a bra. my fingernails and toenails are polished pink as Mistress likes and i am taking care of my online handmaiden duties for Mistress.

Once i am done with this i will have a pair of nipple clamps applied and i will begin housework and keep them on until i am done. It will not take me long to tidy up, but to dust, vaccum, and scub the floors i anticipate about 90 minutes. i hope my poor nips can handle those clamps that long, but i have no choice.

Have a nice day everyone!

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

PS i found another thing that can occur with me no longer having direct access to the blog. When i could edit i could fix my typos. Now once i email it to the blog i have no control and if i made a mistake it is there for all to see.

Misc thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Thu, 17 Aug 2006 20:19:00 +0000

Wow, it is so hot to actually have had Mistress Carmine neuter me but taking my rights away on Her blog. There is much more than this though, She has control over many other things like that. Not just my nubbin, but also thoughts and actions.

i have only had two short messages from Her today and i was so hoping that She would have time to waste on me, but Her time is precious and there must have been none available.

i have been ordered to not read messages on a certain site that i have access to so i do not read those messages even though they are so easy to get to. i follow orders.

i have posted my sissy maid scores as ordered on Her Yahoo page. It was an interesting test, the link to it is in a message on Her Yahoo page as well.

There is a poll on NTC about how long i will be kept from cumming. Mistress has said the poll will last a month which means there is almost two weeks left. Right now the 1 year option is winning by one vote and Mistress hinted that She thinks that will be the winner. There are a lot of days until the 30th, but Mistress can always decide that the poll is over at any time. That is certainly Her perogative as my owner!

Hers

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Blog rights

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Thu, 17 Aug 2006 19:03:00 +0000

Mistress Carmine has determined that i no longer need the ability to manage or edit Her blog. She has removed all of my rights except the ability to post via a special email account.

Mistress Carmine knows what is best and limiting my access to Her blog is best for Her. It is one less right of mine that She would have to manage.

Hers

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Wow 30 days

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Thu, 17 Aug 2006 15:28:00 +0000

Today is 30 days since i last felt the pleasure of an orgasm. In that time i have been teased, i have been denied, i have been humiliated, i have been trained, and i have been caged.

Today i am still in the cage, wanting to have nubbin released, to have it feel the pleasure of touch of something. Mistress Carmine told me that maybe on Sunday it will get out for a while.

i hope that She reconsiders and maybe lets me out earlier. i am waiting for Her to contact me today, this is one of the days that i have a full day to serve Her. On those days She will sometimes have some really intense trainings planned. With today being day 30 and me being so incredibly horny i can only hope that She does have something planned.

Mistress was going to create a schedule, but She has been so busy that She has not had the time, and i expect that it may not happen unless She suddenly does find some extra time to waste on a useless sissy like me.

i will update the blog later with details if lessons are given.

Hers

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Day 29

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Wed, 16 Aug 2006 22:20:00 +0000

Today will end day 29 since the last time i ejected any scum from the nubbin. it has been locked up in its cage all week, i was hoping that Mistress Carmine might allow it out, might allow it to feel the touch of my hand, but She said no.

With the cage on it has no contact with anything, a person may not realize what that is like until they are locked up. No contact with my panties, with my hand, with anything. Of course my balls are shaved smooth and stick out through the tight ring. They remain bunched together and rub against my panties all day. Shaved balls rubbing on the panties make me so horny. It makes me want to take the cage off and allow the nubbin to get stiff and have a few strokes, but that decision is not mine.

Mistress Carmine informed me that i will have a period on Sunday. i really don't know what to expect as this will be my first one.

i have been a little down in the dumps and did not post the last few days, i know i should post every day, but i just did not have the energy or the proper thought process to do so.

Mistress Carmine has added some new polls to Her Yahoo group and also on the NTC board.

Tomorrow is day 30, day 30 and the poll determining my fate is not over until the end of August. i asked Mistress if the length of time without cumming starts on that date or if it started 29 days ago. Mistress Carmine did not answer, i know She loves knowing that i have no idea what Her plans are. It drives me crazy and Mistress Carmine is an expert at fucking my mind. It is so delicious when She gets done, leaving me wanting more, but also leaving me more committed.

Have a good day everyone!

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Contact Mistress Carmine

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Sun, 13 Aug 2006 16:00:00 +0000

Mistress Carmine has ordered me to post Her information here for those of Y/you that may want to contact Her directly instead of replying to such a useless pig as myself.

Mistress Carmine can be conacted at mistresscarmine@yahoo.com and Her site is at www.groups.yahoo.com/group/MistressCarmine .

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Day 26

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Sun, 13 Aug 2006 15:04:00 +0000

Today starts day 26. i have heard from Mistress, She does want these photos posted for others to see. i have posted them in my Yahoo photo album at this address:

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/johnd7218/album?.dir=a1c8re2&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/johnd7218/my_photos

Please feel free to comment and let Mistress know what You think of these photos. Also Mistress has had me drink 6 glasses of water again this morning, i don't know yet how long i may have to hold it in. i am waiting for Her to contact me again, which She hopefully will before too much time goes by.

i am still locked in my cage and hoping that nubbin gets to come out and get some air today. When i showered i noticed that my balls were a little fuzzy so they got shaved again. i may have to start shaving them more often. They feel kind of tender and sore when i am done. Maybe after a while it will not bother them so much.

i noticed that there was another comment left to the poll on NTC, i don't care for the way the voting is going at the moment, but there are several days left so it could change.

That is all to report this morning.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Day 25

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Sat, 12 Aug 2006 17:19:00 +0000

Today begins day 25 since the last time i have been able to spurt my juices out. This day i am still locked up as well, Mistress Carmine is busy in session until tomorrow. i was so hoping to get to spend some time today, but i will be thinking of Her all day and will be hoping for attention tomorrow.

i am excited to hear what She thinks about the pictures when She finally sees them. i hope they please Her. i have been searching the net for sites as She has requested and have provided Her with several ideas that i have seen posted. Some of them do not appeal to me, but i will follow them if they appeal to Her and She wishes it to be.

i have also found a place that lists thousands and thousands of adult yahoo sites so they can be searched for. i added Mistress Carmine's into the search and it can now be found by people using that service.

i am dissapointed in the lack of activity by the other sissys on Her site. It seems as though there are a lot of members, but hardly any posts. i try to update the stats daily, but mine are the only ones that seem to be current. The others never seem to send me the info even though i have requested it time and time again.

i hope Mistress does not see this as a failure on my part. i have sent out notices and seem to rarely get a response. i do enjoy serving Her in this way, but at the same time i hate wasting my time on non responsive work.

i continue to devote my two hours a day to Her service, though with the lack of email from the other sissys lately it is spent reading groups and sending Her information i believe She will want. i will make a post a bit later on Her site reminding everyone to post for Her and to get their information updated. i doubt there will be much response though.

Hers

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Day 24

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Fri, 11 Aug 2006 17:10:00 +0000

Today is day 24 since the last time i had an orgasm. i remain locked in my cage, waiting for Mistress Carmine to give me a reprieve. i was very horny this morning and as my little nubbing struggles to get hard there is pain within its confines. Before long the swelling goes down, only to repeat once there is no pain. my balls ache, held tightly in their rings.

i am waiting to hear from Mistress, She has been busy and not been available to me for the last couple of days. i know i am the least important thing in Her life at the moemnt, but still i can't help but want to be graced by Her acknowledgement of my existance.

i borrowed a camera this morning and repeated the punishment as i promised. It was just as humilating to do it a second time. i think it was more so, there were some workers outside and i kept hearing them talk and move around. Even so i did what i needed to do, not in sight of them, but at any moment i could have been caught. They were in the yard next door and only had to move from where they were and i would have been seen.

i want Mistress Carmine to be the first to see the photo's, She is the one that ordered me to humilate myself in this manner. Once She is satisfied i will post them to Her group.

i remain at Her service and await Her instructions.

Her OWNED property

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

nubbin wants to come out and play

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Thu, 10 Aug 2006 14:56:00 +0000

Hi to everyone that may be reading this blog. i have been locked up in my cage now for two days. As part of my punishment for failing Mistress Carmine in various tasks that had been assigned.

Worse than the two days in the cage has been the fact that it has also been a long time since i have last heard from Her. It has been 44 hours since i last heard anything from Her. Knowing that i am being punished makes me want to please Her all the more, it is torture to hear from Her.

She has told me that i will be getting a weekly schedule starting soon, i have been wondering what that schedule will be. i know i should not think too much about it, it will be what it is, it will be what SHE wants it to be. i have no say in the schedule, i just have to follow it when i receive it.

i have to leave in about 4 hours and will be gone until early tomorrow morning. i will be unable to check my email during that time. If Mistress chooses to ignore me for that much longer then it will be another 15 hours before i even have a chance to check my email. my mind will be on Her a lot, i will be wondering if She has posted my schedule and if She is satisfied with my punishment.

Most of all though i wonder how She is doing. Is She feeling ok, is She having a good day, is She happy, and thoughts like that. i have asked those questions, but with no response i do not know. i worry about Mistress, i want to do everything i can to make sure that She has the happiness She deserves.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

i am only a barcode

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:44:00 +0000

A few weeks ago i bought some panties, pantyhose, and a few other items at the direction of Mistress Carmine. i took them to the checkout counter to pay for them, i was nervous as the checker scanned the items and put them into a bag.

Yesterday i went to the grocery store and purchased a few items, which is making me think about when i purchased my panties. What could buying groceries and buying panties have in common?

At both places my purchases were read by a scanner. Almost everywhere i go today to make a purchase the object is scanned. They all have a barcode on them, a simple unique identifier that allows any person with the proper scanner, to scan it, look up information about it, sell it, buy it, and categorize it. The barcode, modern society's way of tracking belongings.

What has caused me to think so much about the barcode? i have been assigned a barcode, a unique identifier, one that is assigned only to me, and is registered as my identifier. The barcode of an object, a possession, a piece of property is now associated with me! i can no longer say "I am not a number, I am a free man" because i am a number, and i am not a free man. Mistress Carmine has a certificate of ownership which includes my numnber, and proof that i am her property.

i never had any idea what something like this would feel like to my brain. Knowing that there is a barcode associated with my identity, that i would be objectified, that my Mistress would hold papers of ownership. It is a very interesting feeling, i don't know how else to describe it. i know it is just a number, i know that what i describe above can change, but in this context it is still very powerful in my mind. It binds me to my Mistress as Her possession.

i am 240-037-504 property of Mistress Carmine. Mistress Carmine's online certificate of ownership can be seen here: http://www.slaveregister.com/240-037-504

Mistress has an official copy of ownership in Her possession, the barcode is mine, a symbol that i am owned, i am an object, a posession, a slave to Mistress Carmine.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Final Full relief

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 19:31:00 +0000

Mistress had to leave and gave me permission to wait for 15 minutes and then go outside to relieve myself. i was allowed to dress, i put on a pair of blue jeans over my panties and a plain white tshirt.

i went out into my backyard and looked at the 5 houses that were in plain view. Three i was not too worried about it appeared they were gone, but i know that the other two almost always have someone at home. i could also only remain out of view of one of the two streets. One was far enough away i decided it would be the best one to be in view of.

i had to pee so bad i could hardly stand it, yet the thought of peeing in my back yard where people may see made it difficult to start. Finally i did and the front of my pants grew very warm as a dark stain spread out on them. It seemed like i peed forever, it had been just over 3 hours since i had drank 6 large glasses of water and i really had a lot in me.

Once i was done i had to stand there for another 15 minutes before i could go inside. i stood there in my wet pants waiting for the time to pass. Noticing sounds and hearing cars, glancing at windows to see if anyone was looking out.

Finally after an eternity the 15 minutes was up and i walked back into my house. i removed my soaked pants, next came my panties which i started to suck on as Mistress Carmine ordered. It was humiliating to be cleaning my wet panties with my mouth, but that is what i was ordered to do. I sucked on them for over 10 minutes before hand washing them so that they would be clean and ready for use again.

i cleaned myself up and put on a fresh pair of panties, put my pants in the washer and came over to write my report and post it as She ordered.

As i mentioned before, i did not have a camera available and Mistress told me that when i did i would also be repeating this outdoor relief and posting the pictures on Her Yahoo group.

Thank You Mistress Carmine for taking the time today to correct my actions and allowing me to serve as Your sissy, Your slut, Your bitch, Your handmaiden, and Your property.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

More relief granted

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 18:28:00 +0000

i urgently needed relief soon after i had my half full glass. my bladder felt like it was in pain, i was cramping, i had my legs crossed and knew that any moment i was going to loose control.

Mistress allowed me the relief i was begging for, but not in the way i had been asking. She told me that i could lay with my legs over my head and that i could allow 5 seconds worth of my pee to flow into my mouth.

i had to pee so bad i did not even hesitate, but stripped off my tshirt, ran to the bathroom , lay in the tub and released 5 seconds wortth. It was a powerful release, but it also was very very hard to stop at 5 seconds.

i missed my mouth with a lot, i have on my cage and it does not allow for aiming much. my face and hair were soaked as well as my stomach and back. my panties are wet, i am kneeling on a towel on the floor so that my wet body or panties do not make anything other than me smell like a toilet.

Is it over now, i do not know, i do know that after i am done posting in Her blog, on Her page, and on NTC that i will be ready to beg for more relief. i am near that point now.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Golden drink

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 17:59:00 +0000

Mistress Carmine has allowed me to relieve part of the pressure in my bladder by filling a glass half full and then drinking it down. It was very humilating and degrading to do that, i still have an urgent need to go, i am almost back to the point i was when i was allowed to relieve some of the pressure.

She ordered me to make this post and to take photo's. i do not have a camera today, but will post photos of me doing this act at a future date when i do have a camera so You can all see what type of a lowlife i am.

Thank YOU Mistress Carmine!

i am Mistress Carmine's property and She has the ownership papers to prove it. You can see Her deed at

http://www.slaveregister.com/240-037-504

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Locked up

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:51:00 +0000

Mistress Carmine decided that my little nubbin is to now be locked up. i have fitted the cage onto my nubbin and the lock snapped shut. my nubbin is now encased in plastic until She decides it can come out.

i have no idea when that will be, or if She will even let it play when it is allowed out.

i am straining at the moment, Mistress has ordered me to drink 6 glasses of water and i am not allowed to tinkle until She permits it. i am sure that by now She is tired of hearing me beg.

Please feel free to leave comments to me or to Mistress here.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

new task

noreply@blogger.com (Mistress Carmine) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 15:07:00 +0000

sissy joanne new task is to tie her little balls off and use only two fingers to play with just the head of her useless nubbin - she may not cum

she has been very unruly of late and will be made to pay for her insolence!!

So horny

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 14:13:00 +0000

i am sitting here hoping to hear from Mistress Carmine. i am horny beyond belief and unable to even touch my little nubbin. i was about ready to email Mistress Carmine to beg for permission to rub my nub even though i know i am being punished. It dawned on me that is exactly what She wants this blog used for. To publish these thoughts and feelings. To let the world know that She controls me and i exist to serve Her.

i sit here thinking how long it has been since i last spurted, not a month yet, but getting close. How frustrating it is, how my balls ache and my nubbin yearns for the simple touching and stroking that will draw the slime from my balls up on its short trip through my nubbin. Yet i can not do that simple thing, that thing almost every man in the world would do with barely a thought if they were as horny as i am. It makes me even hornier to realize that i am denied even that, and i could just reach down and do it. There is nothing physical to stop me, but i am committed to Mistress and that restraint does prevent me. Being in mental bondage like that seems so much more than being in physical bondage at times like this.

Thank You Mistress, for this punishment.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

sissy punishment

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:54:00 +0000

Hello everyone, today i start this blog at the direction of Mistress Carmine. She is the most important person in the world to me and i have failed Her. She has trusted me as Her handmaiden and secretary and i left town for 3 days without making arrangements to access the Internet. i was unable to respond as Her secretary and caused delays that should not have happened.

In addition i upset Her with a stupid question, and these combined together has earned me the punishment today of not being allowed to touch my tiny nubbin for two days. It will be a very long two days, but i am happy that She has taken the time to correct my bad behaviour.

Mistress is going to post a weekly nubbin rubbin schedule for me and i am to report the results of the daily schedule here.

That is all for now.

sub sissy slut and bitch joanne

Mistress Carmine's RULES

noreply@blogger.com (sissy joanne) — Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:50:00 +0000

sissy joanne will not play with her sissy nubbin without the express permission of Mistress Carmine

sissy joanne will wear, at a minimum, panties ever day and hose, bra, garters and camisole as directed by Mistress Carmine

sissy joanne will only sit while she pisses and will lick and precum or piss dribbles up with her fingers and lick them clean

sissy joanne will lick any precum dribbles from her panties every night

sissy joanne will play with her pussy every day

sissy joanne will practice her cocksucking daily with her dildo

sissy joanne will serve as the handmaiden for Mistress Carmine and perform all such necessary duties and functions!!